I cannot believe it has been this long since I have written to you my angel. The kids moved in March 06th and it has been hectic. My time on this site has been from about once a week to whenever I can. I would come here to greive and cry privately at night. I am finding the lack of privacy to do this like I want to a bit confining. Don't get me wrong, it has it's good points too. I miss you everyday. It is really getting hard with all the fishing and summer stuff going on with you not being here. I turn around all the time to tell you about something. I am fishing some again. I still cannot stay at the camper. You are supposed to be there with me. That was OUR get away. Now it is so empty without you, it is unbearable to be inside alone. Baby, I went to your grave yesterday and Stephen weed-eated and I put out ant poison. I planted some plants Gina gave me. I talked to mom some. Not much trust left there anymore. You can see it. I know you can. I want you here hon. I know you miss me too but things are so good where you are it makes up for everything here. (but me, of course...lol, just kiddin) Well, good nice my pooh bear. I will be posting my love to you much more often. Loving you forever your wife person