I remember how things were on this day a year ago. I remember how sad you were you had the surgery. You told me how much you regretted having it done. We both knew they lied to us about the whole thing. Baby, you made the decision on what you thought was best for you. I know you were tired and sick of being sick. You were always the man I married. You never changed in my eyes. I wish there were things we had talked about. One day we will and laugh like we used to. I miss you. I love you still. I'm beginning to live again baby. I hope that is what you would want. These next few months are going to be the test for me. If you could help me out a little I sure would appreciate it. I don't know if God will let you talk to me in my dreams, but if its possible, feel free to do it. I need you. I always have. Your loving wife