Well Honey it's been almost a year. Time has made such a huge impact on how life is different for me without you. I miss you everyday. Sometimes I can go an entire day and realize I have had a good day. Sometimes I will cry for hours. It just depends on what I am thinking of that day. I'm not sleeping again. As it gets closer to the day marking the one year mark of your death, I am reminded of all the feelings and sorrow of a year ago. I want you to be happy. I also want you with me. So selfish, I know this. I just wanted to let you know I have not forgotten you. I think of you often. I am doing things now to make you proud. I know you know what they are. I could never lie to you about anything, so there is no need in telling you I'm ok. I will never be ok. I'm surviving. Sometimes if I push it all out of my mind and try to forget the pain, it gets better and then hits me all at once. You know how I am. Baby, I miss you so much. I miss my best friend. I guess that is what hurts the most. My fishing buddy, my friend I could tell anything to, the one that I could be silly with and vent to, that could make me laugh and tell me stuff. Keep me grounded. I miss that. I miss my best friend. You always were. I love you baby. Just thought I would drop you a line and let you know. I always loved to write to you. I said it so much better on paper than I ever did in words. Your wife-person ps, I found a picture of our sign language teacher.