Today is Dec.1,2008. Seems like a lifetime has passed since I last wrote to you. I hope you get internet access in heaven. I have discovered I only get a glimpse of you about every 6 months in my dreams. I look so forward to it. I want you to know I'm doing better than I was. I'm taking the damn anti-depressants and they seem to be helping. I think with the passage of time the pain is not as fresh. It is just as heavy as it ever was, I have just grown new muscles to carry the weight of the pain with. I miss your laugh, your smile, the way you worried about me and made me feel like the only woman in the world you cared about. I have known true love with you. Thank you for that. I am going to start making new friends. I may even go out with friends of the male species. I will never love anyone again the way I love you. I just want you to know. I've made it clear I want no relationship just friendships. I think you would be pleased with that. I miss you so much everyday. You will always have my heart, my love, you are and will always be my soulmate. You will see me again one day and we will laugh and play like we always did. You need to know I have not forgotten you, or love you any less now. Just thought I would stop in write it down for you. Looking forward to Christmas this year. Send me a dream. That is all I want this year. I believe! As always I love You Your Wife Person