I miss you so much. Your smile, your looks, the way you have always made me feel loved. I know things are as they should be. You are no longer miserable, no longer in pain. You don't have to worry about anything anymore. I still miss you. I hope you are happy, smiling, laughing. I hope you remember me and all the kids. They miss you too. Gina and Arnold say hi. They miss you too. Honey, I'm happy for you to have missed all the suffering you would have gone through. I thought we had more time, I guess we both did. Did not work out that way. I guess there was a reason for it. I may never know what that is until I see you again. Baby, it has been a long year here on earth. I am sure it has just been a millisecond where you are. I just wanted to let you know I'm always thinking of you. Missing you. Loving you. your wife person me